Strange Security

In the midst of an exciting time during the year, I often find myself unknowingly caught up in a beautiful unfolding of God’s character.

The activity of these days feels nothing short of frenetic. Ride my bike. Cool off. Meetings. The sweat on my shirt still hasn’t dried. Reconnecting with returning students. The morning caffeine is kicking in now. Lunch with a volunteer. Welcoming new students at campus tabling events. Side conversations with staff. Time begins to blur as I switch from each mental mode to accomodate for different interactions. Finally, at an hour like this, I breathe. Taking stock of my day, I am suddenly reminded that God has been present.

Where? How? I actually don’t always know.

It’s amazing how much life happens in the moments of our days. Even more astounding are the ways in which God has been there – in every moment, in every interaction, in every breath. Subtle at times yet ever-present, His Spirit resides in me and strangely, in both the comprehensible and the incomprehensible, moves in this world to bring about His purpose. How inscrutable and glorious are His ways! I cannot begin to imagine how His Spirit is moving in the international student I greeted in my broken Chinese or the new student I just met on campus who wants to find out more about faith. But when His faithfulness surfaces, what a sight it is to behold.

I don’t always know the inner workings of God; after all, there’s only so much that He reveals. But after a long and hurried day, writing and reflecting on God’s Sprit puts me to peace. In Him, there is a strange security that escapes the description of words, “a peace which transcends all understanding.” It doesn’t matter that there are hundreds of things seemingly left unfinished or unresolved (that reminds me, I really need to clean the dishes in our sink soon!). If left to my own devices, I would never sleep. But right now, as I sit back and simply be in His Presence, I know that I can rest secure.

A Glimpse of Humanity

It was a moment that crystallized in my memory, but for greater reasons than our accident’s painful experience.

After arriving in Koh Tao, Gloria and I had decided it would be cheaper to avoid the taxis – it was more me than her, really. Those motorbikes, innocently parked only steps away from our bungalow, had beckoned me with low rental fees. What a money-saver, I thought. My parents would have been proud at my comparative consumerism. We signed the waiver forms and rode off, dismissing the lady’s concerned yet knowing looks when we said we had never driven one before.

3 hours and a couple watermelon shakes later, I drove the bike into the ground. Like so many other overambitious backpackers, our knees and elbows quickly became acquainted with dirt, gravel and sharp rocks. Suddenly, my vision of proud parents vanished.

The accident happened within a matter of seconds. As soon as I had lost control of the bike, I knew we would both sustain injuries. Time would tell how major they would be. What surprised me, though, was not that I got into an accident but how quickly and genuinely people responded to our time of need. Before we could even get off the ground and react to what had happened, a half dozen people surrounded us. A French couple pulled over on their own bike (Europeans, apparently, are better at riding these scooters). An off-duty police office across the street rushed to our side. Three local Thai women came from inside their shops with bandages and cleaning alcohol in hand. No one took a photo on their smartphone. Each of their faces communicated fear, concern, worry. But most poignantly, they communicated love. And there, despite the searing pain of lacerated skin and bleeding, raw flesh, I somehow found myself in a place of peace.

As I took in this unfolding scene, a singular thought kicked up to the surface and signaled its emergence: this must be God’s creation in right relationship with each other, if only for a moment. There were no misinterpreted motives, no misconstrued actions, no selfish desires, only man helping his neighbor without regard to class, status or ethnicity. Remarkable and confounding, our experience was a modern snapshot of the good Samaritan. It was “a paradise built in hell” (Rebecca Solnit). Much like Jesus’ parable and the personal accounts of the Great Fire of San Francisco, this moment afforded us a glimpse of humanity as God intends. Broken as humanity may be, it seems that the human psyche is still somehow hardwired – created – with the potential to respond to need. Some might call this responsibility. Whatever it is, we often don’t see it enough these days.

Oh, how we need more of Christ to fill us with His Spirit and empower us to love responsibly from moment to moment! What a day it will be when Christ comes to redeem and restore our humanity.

Thankfully, Gloria and I weren’t seriously injured. No broken bones, just some very deep, slow-healing wounds. For several days, we stayed in the shade and read books. We stared at the small waves rising and falling along the beach, as if to taunt us for our forced expulsion from the water. And we thanked God for His grace.

Beauty of Difference

Music plays softly in the background of this eclectic and comfortable cafe – its yellow walls adorned with abstract art. I look around. Faces. Worn, happy, concerned and engaged. It’s amazing how much someone can tell you through a single glance. Light bounces off the adjacent, red brick building and delicately streams through the large windows, as if it were meant to create the relaxed ambience of this place. The wooden door, probably reclaimed from the building’s past life when it housed a bank or a mom and pop shop, squeaks distinctively, swinging back and forth as the last of the lunch crowd leaves. Aside from the two middle aged women reconnecting about their lives and the college student sitting in front of them, the back side of the cafe is now empty. Above me, a fan spins almost imperceptibly as it hangs mounted on the green ceiling tiles. Its blades gently pass through the air, creating a slight breeze that lazily mixes with the distanced laughter of unseen individuals at the cafe’s storefront. My wandering eyes begin to trace the ceiling edge running against the far wall – here, green meets yellow as each stops abruptly before the other, curiously beholding and complementing each other’s difference.

My mind stays with this thought…difference. It can be subtle and stark. And often misunderstood. History does not make light of this last reality: male-female, black-white, young-old, Democrat – Republican. Probably not green-yellow though.

Not all differences are inherent. But when differences are real and natural, their meeting holds the potential for beauty. When the worn soul meets the joyful smile of another, differences and similarities clash, enabling each to mutually lift the other up. Differences connect in and over similarity, and each is afforded the unique opportunity to become more fully themselves.

Edge meets edge. Man meets wife. Black meets white. Created meets Christ. What amazing opportunity God gives us each day to behold beauty and become ourselves.

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